Today I went to a nutrition counselor for ‘nutrition lifestyle changes’. While, yes, I did lose 30 plus pounds and am at a healthy weight, that does not mean my body is healthy.
I arrived about 10 minutes early for my appointment and my husband came with. When I was handed the paperwork to fill out, I became increasingly anxious and embarrassed. I had to be honest about how mediocre I eat and have been eating for a while now. I pretty much eat the same five things. I am the child who will only eat chicken nuggets. The worst part is, that I actually LOVE fruits and vegetables. So why have I been treating my body so poorly for so long? Honestly, I felt like not only it wasn’t worth the effort, time or energy; that I wasn’t worth it either. With my husband & friend’s support and encouragement, I know that I am.
People might not know, and its easy for me to forget, that I worked hard to get to where I am with myself. My very first CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) appointment was December 11th, 2017. It has been a year and 7 months of tears, stress, meltdowns, and incredibly hard work.
This has been such a journey already and I am very pleased with the progress I have already made and look forward to the progress I will continue to make. Although this isn’t the beginning, this is the first step in the next leg of it with many more to come.